Wednesday, May 29, 2013

A year ago

I was watching my life fall to pieces 
I was saying all the wrong things, knowing I wasn't supposed to beg
I was wondering why crying didn't come faster 
I was wondering how to escape the emotions, willing my mind to far away places
I was at my brother's home, never to return and sleep on my bed in my Bountiful apt
I was calling my mom and telling her its over
I was calling work and claiming illness
I was on an air mattress, lying awake for hours because sleep was harder
I was broken in every possible way


Today, I am happy
I am watching my life continue to unfold in exciting ways
I am closer to my family
I am more humble and willing to accept guidance from my family
I am healthier 
I am closer to my Heavenly Father
I am making new friends
I am living old dreams that still light up my life 
I am stronger and more confident in what I deserve
I am settled in a new home
I am (90%) out of boxes 
I am single and learning again the joys that can bring
I am more loving and forgiving 

Happy anniversary to me and the beginning of the life God had ready for me. It's not been an easy first year, but the blessings have far outweighed the pains. I hope I can continue to live in a way that brings continued blessings, happiness, and perhaps even a desired miracle or two. 



Friday, May 17, 2013

Dance and truth

To know me, truly know me, is to see me dance. I love it. I'm most confident when I'm dancing. I'm happiest when dancing. And all the inside joy radiates outwards, possibly making me the most beautiful when I dance. I joke that it's my full time hobby.... But it is! And I'm hoping to make it more of a hobby..... That's a story for another day, though. Tonight, I'm basking in the after glow of a wonderful evening of dance, and the compliments of several guys on my dancing skills and eyes. :) 

Don't limit yourself and don't let others convince you that you are limited in what you can do. Believe in yourself and then so as to reach your possibilities. You can achieve what you believe you can. Trust and believe and have faith. ~ President Thomas S. Monson