Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Fat Days: Fall 2008

This happened one night in 2008. Thanks, Kristen, for playing photographer. I had won a massively large shirt and for some reason felt possessed to make it fit. 

It's okay, you know you want to laugh. 

Fist pump
Muscle woman
Michael Flatley
Perfect Pillow
Booty shake
Love my guts
Dance Party
Redneck
Fat Runner
Reaching
Big Booty
Seduction

Sunday, November 21, 2010

To the Moon

A true friend is one soul in two bodies.
Aristotle (384 BC-322 BC)


I feel like I could jump to the moon tonight. I feel filled with energy and vitality right now. Great timing, right? I don't care. I'm going to let that excitement carry me through... well at least the next few days. Seriously. So. Happy. 

Saturday, November 20, 2010

A moment of silence

Facebook is a wealth of information... and sadly today I saw the pieces falling together to indicate that one of my dear friends from freshman year had passed away. Somehow I managed to miss the news reports for two days. David Whitney was one of the kindest men you'd ever meet. He's about the only guy I wrote while he was on his mission (brothers excepted) and we have remained friends over the past 6 years. It's a tragic loss. (I have some old pictures of us somewhere... I'll try and post some once I locate the disc.)


http://www.ksl.com/?nid=148&sid=13307374

http://www.fox13now.com/news/kstu-payson-plane-crash,0,5414287.story

Homecoming 2008

Friday, November 19, 2010

Night

Wow, was today really only Thursday? Wednesday seems so long ago. Can I just say that the end of Wednesday was completely amazing and wonderful? Well, it was. So there. 

I should be asleep right now. Or reading something, since I'm obviously not asleep right now. Instead I'm blogging. About how I should be sleeping. 

I went and visited Megan tonight (and Natalie. Ethan was asleep). It's nice to just chill with family and see my cutest-ever niece! 

I drove home from Springville. It's too far to walk, you know? So I'm driving and minding my own business when something smacks against my driver-side window. What the...?? It's so weird, because it was almost an out-of body experience... like, I feel like I watched myself flinch. I'm just glad I didn't swerve when I flinched. The idiot car next to me had a bunch of punk kids in it who were gadding about with water balloons. Let me tell you, we're all lucky that nothing broke. Like my window. Or their heads. Ok, ok, I'm pretty much a non-violent person, so their heads would never be in any danger. But it's a good thing their illegal activity didn't actually cause true harm or damage.

What are you supposed to do in those kinds of situations? I know a lot of things, but that's something I've never learned or been prepped for. Kind of like the "I just ran over a dog and have no clue what to do" scenario. Have I mentioned that I once ran over a dog? And didn't know what to do? I still remember that when I drive on that street. Someone should write a guidebook for how to handle rare and somewhat random situations like that. I  could sure use it.

It's cold. I need to take my contacts out. It's way past bedtime. WAY. Oh man. This ends now.  I must leave this bed so I can truly return to it. 

Sorry you just read the most random post ever. I hope it was.... randomizing. And someone really should write that book. 

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Wednesday

It is a Wednesday. Meaning it feels like a Monday. Do days feel like a certain way? I usually don't think Mondays are all that bad... each day is a struggle for me to wake up and there's always more to do than there is time. I guess that's really what this is all about. 

I'm stressed.
Out.

December 3rd is my huge graduate reading examination. The good news: I have all the books that I need to read currently in my possession. And I've read/viewed about half of them. Which means I have approximately 7 left. I really would like to not fail. Honestly, I don't think I will, but the prospect of those 7 readings is daunting. Especially when I think about grading a pile of exams. And a cultural experience response. And working on my 20+ page paper. And wouldn't it be great if I finished creating my class lectures for this semester? Hey, and if I'm that far ahead, I might as well start writing their final too. Did I mention I have a final tomorrow? (I know, I definitely should be doing something besides blogging. It's okay... I'm simultaneously working on my class prep. Today is poetry.)


There's more to every story, and this one is no different. But I think I'll just leave you with this awesome quote from Katherine Hepburn. It fits some other thoughts I'm thinking.  

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get -  only what you are expecting give - which is everything. What you will receive in return varies. But it really has no connection with what you give. You give because you love and cannot help giving.  - Katherine Hepburn

Friday, November 12, 2010

That's one thing you'll never hear me say

Things that are extremely unlikely to ever be uttered by me:

I think I'll quit dancing
I don't like reading
Pink is the ugliest color in the world
I wish I could belch the ABC's
I'm looking a little skinny these days... I need to gain 10 lbs
Sleeping is overrated
Food is evil and should be avoided
I miss running 

Oh wait.

Forget that last one! Yes, folks, it is official. 

I miss running!

I never in a million years thought that I'd every say that, let alone actually feel the pangs of missing running. It's not something I'm particularly good at, and it's not something I particularly love, but I do in fact miss it. Since running my race on Halloween Eve, I really haven't hit the road much. I got in a decent hill run last Saturday (after a week of general inactivity), and I'll probably try to get in a short run before rehearsal this Saturday. I tried to get some time on the elliptical on Tuesday, but I went to the gym at quite the wrong time and all that was left was the stair stepper. Yeah... and I actually did the thing for 20 minutes. I pretended that I was hiking a mountain with a cute boy. 
But really, two weeks and such minimal physical exertion has taken its toll! Little did I realize at the time, but running not only gave me a great workout, it also gave me endorphins which made me happy about life and more energized to complete my never-ending To-Do list. The list just keeps growing, it seems, and I definitely need to have motivation if I ever want to get through it. (My goal is to stay alive through December 3rd. After that, all bets are off). I just wish the weather were not so cold! Not being a major fan of running, I really dislike running around in circles on a track. But it's either run indoors on a track or treadmill (which is 10x worse than a track) or bundle up and freeze myself for 20 minutes each cold and dark evening. I still haven't decided which is worse, uh, I mean better, but let it hereby be known that I am getting back on the running horse on a more consistent basis. Besides all the side-benefits, I'd like to run another 5k again and have an improved time. So... I guess I better find one and start working to that goal again. 
And that's the end of things you never thought you'd hear me say. And really? I probably never will say any of them. Sure I wrote about missing running, but did those words pass my lips? I think not.  
 

Friday, November 5, 2010

My Love Affair





. . . with books.

I love books. Seriously. I own way too many. I check out way too many from the library. I probably have as many books as I do clothes and shoes. I have books in 3 boxes in my closet, in two stacks on the shelf in my closet, layered two deep under my TV stand (behind closed doors thank goodness), lined up in a box next to my desk (all my current "school-assigned" books), stacked on the shelf under my desk, and a few spares left by old roommates out in the front room. By and large, those are the books that I own. Then we have the ones I'm borrowing. Those are mostly relegated to the top of the desk (currently coming in at two piles) and the floor. Sorry, but that John Constable book weighs probably 5 pounds and is absolutely too huge to fit anywhere else. 

Yesterday I went to the library. To get more books. Because I have to read more books. I have a reading test as part of my graduate experience and it is coming up in about a month... the first Friday of December. (Any guesses on what I'm doing over Thanksgiving this year?) Of the approximately 21 works I have to read I've read... not enough. So I hunted down the call numbers to get four more-- that professor is nice and has me reading selections from the more dense works of theory. I'm saving the harder stuff for later. Yeah, that makes great sense. Anyways, I also found the electronic copy of a dissertation I needed for another professor's list, and I had the brilliant idea to check the author's works cited page to see if I could find any gems. I found six separate titles -- I found their call numbers -- I wrote them all down on the backside of the paper with the four I needed. These new six are practically fluff compared to the other four, in that they'll help my thesis research, but I don't have a deadline for reading them. If it's not got a time limit attached, I probably shouldn't read it, right?

So, I went to the library. The BYU library is huge, so I always write down the floor number with the call number to make my journey efficient. That, and I know if I start browsing the shelves at random I'll walk out with twenty books that I really don't have time to read. I made my way through the miles of shelves... not that I walked miles to find my books, although they were basically at the furthest possible points from where I walked into the various sections. (It's okay, I needed some exercise this week. I've been horrifically lax since my race last Saturday.) From 1st floor to 5th floor, I diligently followed the front of my list, the side with four books that must be read and remembered and synthesized in the next month. As I walked down from the 5th floor, I paused on the landing for the 4th floor. That's where the Music/Dance area is at, a series of shelves with which I am intimately acquainted. Almost every (unnecessary) book on the back of my list could be found quickly in that area. 

I walked on down the stairs, bypassing the temptation to bring home yet more books. You'd think I'd made it to safety, right? The main floor (3rd floor) is primarily a study area, so there's practically no risk of picking up an extra book on the fly. Except for the Sampler Collection. The easily-accessible location where popular fiction, old and new, is housed so students can grab and go, so to speak. I don't indulge in fiction much during the school year, so this area usually holds little draw for me. However, as I walked past the doors I felt like all those happy fiction books were laughing and taunting me!! Come read me, come read me, you know you want to have a good time! Forget responsibilities and have a little fling! Pernicious little fictions trying to tempt me!! 

 I walked away. I made it out of the library with just the four books I will need to read for next month. I still have about 5 or 6 to check out for the rest of my reading exam list, but hopefully my struggles with bookly temptations will be less extreme by then. And hopefully I will have read some of the books that need to be read! People sometimes joke that Humanities is an easy major because it doesn't involve math or science or economics or difficult conceptual theories. I would have to disagree. First of all, we do have difficult theories to wrap our brains around... they just related to more philosophical things than how-the-world-works things. And secondly, we have to transport LOADS of information into our brains with stupendous amounts of reading! Have you tried reading 4-5 books at once and keeping them all straight and gaining theoretical and conceptual insights from them (while keeping them all straight)? Try it. 

I love books.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Redemption!

So about nine years ago I ran a 5k race. And came in dead last. As in, the water girls and the police car that marks the end of the race were my companions for... honestly? probably nearly half the race. At least the last third of it. 

Fast forward to this fall. My roommate and I decided we wanted to get into a workout routine, and we opted to run. In order to help motivate ourselves, we signed up for a 5k race, the Highway to Hale Halloween race. My goal: not come in last place! I'm happy to say, I succeeded in meeting my goal. I still want to improve my time, but I'm super excited with how I did! I came in 23 out of 52 in my age group, and 176 out of 325 overall! 

WOOT! 

(Sorry for the tabs of my browser. That's what it looks like when I do class prep.)

Don't limit yourself and don't let others convince you that you are limited in what you can do. Believe in yourself and then so as to reach your possibilities. You can achieve what you believe you can. Trust and believe and have faith. ~ President Thomas S. Monson