A year ago

I was watching my life fall to pieces 

I was saying all the wrong things, knowing I wasn't supposed to beg

I was wondering why crying didn't come faster 

I was wondering how to escape the emotions, willing my mind to far away places

I was at my brother's home, never to return and sleep on my bed in my Bountiful apt

I was calling my mom and telling her its over

I was calling work and claiming illness

I was on an air mattress, lying awake for hours because sleep was harder

I was broken in every possible way

Today, I am happy

I am watching my life continue to unfold in exciting ways

I am closer to my family

I am more humble and willing to accept guidance from my family

I am healthier 

I am closer to my Heavenly Father

I am making new friends

I am living old dreams that still light up my life 

I am stronger and more confident in what I deserve

I am settled in a new home

I am (90%) out of boxes 

I am single and learning again the joys that can bring

I am more loving and forgiving 

Happy anniversary to me and the beginning of the life God had ready for me. It's not been an easy first year, but the blessings have far outweighed the pains. I hope I can continue to live in a way that brings continued blessings, happiness, and perhaps even a desired miracle or two.