Born to Dance

I was born to dance. Inside me is a soul that yearns to forever speak through movement, unadulterated motion, uninhibited flow. Words aren't enough to convey those emotions... they are too limited. Motion extends into eternity.

I've got a hankering

Seriously, I've been hankering lately. It's probably just the usual "I wish I were dating someone" thing.... but it is a hankering, nonetheless. And Clog America... I'm wishing I were dancing with them so I could go to Turkey this summer. I turned down TURKEY!!! As in, Istanbul, the Blue Mosque, the Hagia Sophia, the bazaars, and reuniting with our awesome Turkish friends. I'm even hankering for BYU Folk Dance. I finished with that over two years ago! I guess I'm just feeling unsettled... but in a way that I feel like will motivate me to do things. For example, maybe I'll train for a half marathon. Yeah, me, the no-good, very bad runner.... but it could be fun. And maybe it will help curb my wanton hankering for things I can't have or don't have.

Age marches on

How soon hath Time, the subtle thief of youth, stolen on his wing my three-and-twentieth year!

John Milton


I know it's a little early to broach the subject, but I will soon be turning ages again, adding yet another year and opening a new 12-month chapter of experiences. Besides, how often do you get a quote that so perfectly matches your current status?

100th post

Wow, I've been blogging for over a year and have now hit my 100th post marker! Pretty exciting, if I do say so myself. (Well, maybe it was really rather anticlimactic, but I figure it was worth celebrating anyways.) It's always interesting to go back and read what I wrote in past months and year(s). Seeing where I have been helps me remember where I am going. I wonder, sometimes, if I wasn't more on target in the past than I am each day... but I think that's just the benefit of 20-20 retro-vision. So, here's to transcribing the present to have a referent in the future that captures the past.

Here's today's gem for the past/future. I came across this in John Bytheway's "What I Wish I'd Known When I Was Single." It was a great read, with some excellent quotes, advice, etc. I found this one by Edison to be reflective of my dating..... I go out on a fair number of dates-- quite a few compared to some girls-- and yet am generally single and unattached. Why? I haven't found my incandescent filament yet. It has yet to be discovered.

Results! Why, man, I have gotten
lots of results. I know several thousand
things that won’t work.
—Thomas A. Edison

I (heart) Michael Buble

This song really fits where I'm at now. I went through a really big rut/valley/trench for about two weeks, but I have thankfully made it through that and back on balance. I'm thankful for how topsy-turvy I became then, because I now feel like I have a stronger faith in the future. One thing I've realized, looking at friends who are now engaged, is that so much can change in such a short amount of time. I still think it will take something of a miracle for me to meet that guy, but I know that it will happen. When it should happen. And it is worth waiting for :)

This is wonderful!

Sunny Sunday

So I've been thinking many thoughts, particularly in the past week. Deep thoughts, even. And what I've learned, though I hope I keep learning beyond this simple lesson, is that there are always answers. While it's not exactly the desire of my heart, I have gotten answers that I needed to internalize on my path to achieving/receiving the desire of my heart. Each trial and test is a stepping stone in that path, and it shapes who I am now into who I can be- someone that I may not see in myself, but that the Lord sees in me.

Alma 7:23 And now I would that ye should be ^ahumble, and be ^bsubmissive and gentle; easy to be entreated; full of patience and long-suffering; being temperate in all things; being diligent in keeping the commandments of God at all times; asking for whatsoever things ye stand in need, both spiritual and temporal; always returning thanks unto God for whatsoever things ye do receive.
I came across this scripture during my reading this week, and knew that it was speaking to me, specifically, of things I needed to do. Anger and frustration, though we may feel impelled to express those emotions sometimes, are not the keys to anything at all, except more anger, frustration, and alienation from the Spirit. This was my first key in facing my current trial. Let the anger go and embody these qualities instead.


D&C 58:2 For verily I say unto you, blessed is he that ^akeepeth my commandments, whether in life or in ^bdeath; and he that is ^cfaithful in ^dtribulation, the ^ereward of the same is greater in the kingdom of heaven.

3 Ye cannot behold with your natural ^aeyes, for the present time, the design of your God concerning those things which shall come hereafter, and the ^bglory which shall follow after much tribulation.

4 For after much ^atribulation come the ^bblessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be ^ccrowned with much ^dglory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand.

5 Remember this, which I tell you before, that you may ^alay it to heart, and receive that which is to follow.

A dear friend of mine offered this scripture for advice, when I sought his insight. It truly touched my heart, for I recognized the truth was resounding in my heart. Remembering these things is difficult, and that is often what lets small challenges become big trials. To remember something..... it means we already know it and simply need to bring it to the front of our thoughts. We can't know, really, what lies ahead of us. But it's going to be good. There will still be problems, and hard times will always be close at hand, but it will be something better than we could ever have imagined. I have imagined a lot, so sometimes it's hard to think that there's anything better than what I've dreamt up for myself, but there is.

Well, I suppose that is enough for today. It's time for break the fast, so I'm going to go mingle with people (I hope). Ace is sick and has been so kind as to take residence in all the public areas of our apartment-- I swear she spends most of her day at the desk in the kitchen-- so now that I'm beginning to feel a cold coming on, I'm rather wary. Oh well, she'll cough where she wants, I suppose, and I'll suffer the consequences. Let's hope what I had this summer was swine flu and that I don't get it again from her. Or her sick friend she brought over the other day.... yeah. If I do get it, I will at least be courteous and keep to my room, for the general sake of whoever comes to our apartment, so they have a chance of NOT getting it.